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417 Surfacing from the Death Sentence of the burgeoning bourgeois-ville of inturned stiled cities

.. keeping some1 from death = just as bad as killing some1 against their will .... the book itself becomes framed in the writing of it .. in a sort of death spiral .. morphemed social insects marching in circles to death .. his writing like dividing by 0 .. not linear but circularly cullapsing into itself .... in the beginning Blanchot tells us he destroyed the 1st draft of the book .. so what becomes this book [ ... ]

416 Nomadic Rome-antics riding Paul Revere's wolf to No Place on Earth in particular flushed awkwordness

« .. one of those moments of doleful lucidity when he perceives the thought behind every play of features, the meaning behind every word, the reason for every action—moments when everything, most of all he himself, lies exposed in its nakedness and poverty, and loathing enters into him, and words are like toads jumping out of his mouth and the mouths of others.» [ ... ]

415 The traumatic language of dead dads + a Roaman wolf revisited

.. @ sum pt every 1 has a dead dad (unless u die 1° .. in which case your dad belongs to the club of dads who outlive their sons ± daughters .. a club even sadder than the dead dads club) .... we ourself joined the dead dads club @ age 15 .... + we also belong to the dead brothers club which feels sadder still than the dead dads club .. + this means our mom belongs to the club of moms who [ ... ]

414 Just like the 1-winged crow becoming a fish out of water in Aragon's Paris

.. both of us trying to sleep it off holed up in a typically tiny dank hotel room .. of all places Paris .. nowhere else do we feel such the fish out of water as France .. even living 3 months in Nice never adjusted culturally .... nowhere else do we feel so detached + self-conscious .. so unhip + unfashionable .. tout trop étranger .. maybe sumthing to do w/ the language .. our français est merde .. other places [ ... ]

413 The morality of landscape + sherpas as we fishtail to walkabout Annapurna communing w/ animals

.. thinking now about what we thawt whilst walking + those long cold nights laying there not sleeping .. thinking what our brother-½ thawt about or xpected to find + like him inevitably coming up empty handed .... where do all those thawt thawts go? .... sorta of like the Aborigine walkabout custom of formulating songlines from landscapes .. retrieved only when repeating the same walk [ ... ]

412 The Strangers, crows + separation anxiety: 95% the way round the world in 18 days then forking solo

.. saw a tree full of crows all making a fuss + 1 crow dangled from its wingtip unable to get free no matter how hard it flipped + flapped .... disturbing sight .. a murder of other crows gathered watching but nuthing they cd do .... we took this as a bad omen .. considering wether we shd fly today or not .... then thawt (justified) that maybe it meant (since «early bird gets 1st worm») we shdn't go [ ... ]

411 Stuck in Lodi (Delhi) again (.. + Safdarjung's tomb w/ a Huaz Khas complex)

.. them want to take u everywhere + guide u all day xcept wont want to take u to where u ask to go unless u insist .. drops me off in Hauz Khas area but nowhere near the temple complex .. walk thru some janky park w/ either couples making out in bushes our groups of lecherous males w/ greasy hair + Members Only jackets looking for girls .. or guys w/ sticks seeming eager to use them on [ ... ]

410 Inner Experience in India intuiting inroads in nonknowledge in vain (cant see it if u try)

.. so smoggy cd see smog inside the airport .. a thick haze .. eyes + throat burning w/in minutes .. our pineal pinged .. confused w/ time zones + room #s .. probly stayed in a dozen different hotels in ½ a dozen different time zones so far in 2015 .. went to sleep w/ curtains drawn + slept til 10:30 AM (rare for us) .. got up to get breakfast that ended at 10:30 .. told them room 104 + ordered [ ... ]

409 Fleeing the land of doomsday hoarders to Kafka's placeless take on Amerika

.. strange to pack for 6 months .. makes u realize it dont matter whether 1 week or 2 .. or 1 month or 6 .. or 3 years .. if u dont use sumthing 1x a week u dont need it .. a few changes of clothes .. a brush for teeth or hair .. tho longer than a month might actually need a razor .... + of course this machine we write on .. unfortunately we still not weaned of book objects so ½ our baggage composed of [ ... ]

408 Winks undertakings: back on Hudson (in transit) Maphatting south of Canal

.. after a month long hiatus from our Maphattan Project .. we hit the streets again .. perhaps would've tried to finish it all off (only ~26 miles left) but yesterday's snow (or the subsequent forecast of 100% rain that never happened) threw a kink into our plans .. so might just have to leave the southern tip for when we next revisit [ ... ]

407 4 hours in Hong Kong meets Huck Finn The prime American punk

.. reckon many a merican can .... the idea uv striking out in such free-floating independance .. leaving a broken home .. not that we had such an abusive paps .. but drunkard yes + neither parent supporting us to educate ourself but in stead greenly resentful we might 1 up on dem .. + mustering to take credit for what we'd done by our own recognizance .... + tho we never lived w/ no anal widow our [ ... ]

406 Contagion of baseness + buffoonery: reversing reaction of Pure Immanence

Better a nothingness of the will than a will of nothingness! But thanks to this rupture, the will to nothingness turns against the reactive forces, becoming the will to deny reactive life itself, and inspires in man the wish to actively destroy himself. Beyond the last man, then, there is still the man who wants to die. And at this moment of the completion of nihilism (midnight), everything is ready— [ ... ]

405 Jetty jank + street art gimmickry of Georgetown (Penang) [ ... ]

404 Inursecting back: Lombok to Penang isles (via Java) xactly 24 yrs future past

... Hours spent sitting on my pack holding mindless conversations w/ Javanese guys (never approached by women). Finally the train came—got a seat next to some guy reading the Koran. He didn't even look up, read it 6 hours straight without even blinking. It was dark. I could feel motion but all i could see was a crowded smokey car jerking back + forth. Reality + sleep became synchronous. [ ... ]

403 I-land frogging to Penang in a veiled return to undifferentiated animism

.. but the «primitive» makes no distinction between the mystic + material world .. undifferentiated all the same .. them belief system so ingrained + intuitive them dont even call it nothing («animism» an anthropological construct) .. .. «Primitives see with eyes like ours, but they do not perceive with the same minds. We might also say that their perceptions are made up of a nucleus surrounded by [ ... ]

402 Can 1 reason rationally reading How Natives Think w/o killing animist magic or «not knowing any better»?

... the «primitive way» considers all things + beings ± whatever else to be cosmically linked .. in this holistic mindset there exists no distinction between self + everything else .. between subject + object .. between past + present .. animate + inanimate .... of course seems paradoxical or anthropomorphic that Lévy-Bruhl can speak of the inner-workings of the primitive mind as such [ ... ]

401 East meets West Timor in land of living we dead spitting betel-juice

.. after all the requisite formalities + hand-shaking they directed us to stand up in front + this shaman-like guy started in on this intense chanting + the community would chime in on certain words .. he was swaying + getting quite emotional enough to make hair on back of our neck bristle .. not sure what he said (not even in bahasa Indonesian but in their local dialect (dawan)) .. then 2 women [ ... ]

400 We the Living monkey chanting for individualism in the land of fire + water

.. sacrificing self for the better of society .. something Indonesians seems to do naturally (Kecak exemplary of this) .. no 1 needing to take credit .. more about the art than the artist .. a consequence of rice-growing culture .. a crop that requires a lot of community cooperation (to make rice paddies .. irrigation .. etc.) .. whereas wheat-growing cultures tend toward every man for himself [ ... ]

399 Intersecting Indonesia in Preparation for the Next Life + new year

.. a way to cope w/ chaos + uncertainty .. or just that it comes when u dont expect it .... after xfering files over so our slave laptop mimics mother machine started (not just thinking about but) officially writing Raft Manifest (the continuation of The Becoming) .. case u wonder why write us like this here .. method acting .. still not cognizant ('kumtux' in The Becoming speak) of the verb «to be» [ ... ]

398 ✝-ing Houston no problem down to Canal, grafing relingos a ✝ fluxus isle o man for our fables of reconstruxion

Eyes flicker in R.E.M. when look us up into the glaring white sky... Maphattan a dreamachine, triggering songlines as we wander, hitting harmonics ... cris-✝-ing a zillion alturnate paths, sum our own ... en otro lugar + tiempo, footprints still m-pressed ... zig-zagging to deconstruct + revisit ... accumulating to 1 day become nostalgia (from the Greek nostos-'return home’ + algos-‘pain’) [ ... ]

397 Archipelago Indonesia '90 x land + sea—Timor > Flores > Komodo > Lombok

I didn't sleep much. They were still partying it up w/ the palm wine in the men's hut. The dogs were howling at the full moon ... other weird sounds. The bed just a bamboo mat ... no blankets or sheet. Had strange dreams ... woke up a few times cuz Villy was screaming in his sleep ... 3x this happened. He woke me up at 4:30 to watch the sunrise ... "do you want to sleep more?" he asked. [ ... ]

396 Mainlining village dreamtracks for infamy into an Oblivion Atlas of forgetting

... «the streets is tricky in these parts here» ... we don't know how hard it is there ... the trickiness we refer to has more to do w/ navigation, (why the Aborigines came up w/ songlines in the 1st place—to help them find their way thru the landscape) ... optimizing our route ... + to not miss relevant landmarks. In meatspace our field map not nearly so clean ... [ ... ]

395 [Ah Pook is Here] is here: lipsus machina, the art of ruin + ransom notes of CAPTCHAs, whileST Xing 14th

The tethering of projects to the corrupting filth of copyright + financing inevitably what kills it before even getting off the ground ... at best to become ½-baked enchiladas. Often ruin = most telling/intresting ... when stripped of original practical intent + [ ... ]

394 Flashback to OZ '90: hitching dreamtime to Moby Dick thru the outback

... this went on for quite a while, to no avail. Finally she got off, pulled the condom off + twirled it around over her head + flung it offstage like she had conquered him. She was the matador + he the dead bull, laying there defeated. Everybody cheered + the guy flipped the audience off. As the curtain closed, he lay there naked under the harsh lights, spread eagle on the stage like a beached whale. [ ... ]

393 Economized media: WHAT becomes writ = more important than WHO writes it

Place just seems to take herself way too seriously for her own good ... so full of her$elf $he incorporated her$elf out, sold. From what could us muster to read of Boycott just seemed boring + anally pent up ... the tone like a stern parent lecturing us kids. We unable to xpress the way $he seems unable to xpress her$elf ... retentively repressed + image-greedy as $he puts on, out. [ ... ]

392 Flashback to New Zealand 1990: Journeling our autobiopsychogeography

Then we saw their lights coming from under the waterfalls + they both surfaced. We proceeded in line ... like good little penguins up the side of the cliff w/ our innertubes where we were to jump off. I volunteered to go 1st. I stepped to the edge + could just see dark swirls + bubbles below. As i was flying thru the pitch dark abyss a lot went thru my mind. Before, i was just mindlessly trodding along [ ... ]

391 Concurrently + literaturely—gold-rushing our autobio-psychoge(ne)ography

wont dig further back than this as try us not to show living people here. IRL, in real-time, continue us our own psychogeographical mappings of our current environs ... yesterday (30.11) took advantage of the warmer weather + chalked off a dozen streets, from 39 to 28 ... sum 22 miles or so, tho our better-½'s iphone app claims over a marathon of distance ... still not out of the trenches of [ ... ]

390 Bough Down to Wytches (SSEY it aint so) a la tamarind treed mole w/ green chili unstuffing

{tamarindo (mucho), roma tomatoes, poblanos, guajillos, chipotles, habanero, chocolate, vegetable broth, onion, garlic, cinnamon stick, plums, almonds, peanut butter, cranberries, black sesame seeds, sesame oil, olive oil, all-spice, ginger, oregano + other spices} [ ... ]

389 Guilty of being Chaulky White: demurely abiding the rails of archival g-g-jeanology to find g-g-g-g-g-host incestors on LSD

What up w/ these in-breeding homebodies? Between 1605-1858 not a single peep wanted to up + leave the U.S. or marry some 1 foreign/non-WASPy? All this time + not 1 fell in love w/ say, a Tillamook or Nooksack? Exist there plenty of dead ends + peeps of [ ... ]

388 By reflexing the rebar-red Wire city we track direct current ALT covering GND

Question is, how much of this navel-gazing randum meaning-of-life shit that amounts to nuthing can 1 read? Reading about writing bout reading (or versa-vice-versa) ... it's like meditating on nuthing ... can we ever think about nuthing? Even thinking bout nuthing is sumthin cuz inevitably we embedded in the framework of thawed. Can we ever write about just writing w/o real world drama slipping [ ... ]

387 A Short History of Decay -dance: our biographical odyssey as archival geneography in space + time seeded w/ mitochondrial Eve + capped in sage

This is us tonguing our genetics ... ticking like a cherry bomb ... birfurcating ecstatically. To each his own harmonic carrier frequency. Wandering pilgrims searching for the golden fur, guided by Fibonacci. Our language derived from the river-ruined landscape [ ... ]

386 Hollow doll electricians hit reset + file under a lost but now found Black Sun

... an out of control intergalactic plane w/ no landing gear + a pilot that doesn't know how to fly + no eject button ... on a crash course into the sun. But our gripe that we have again + again is that ok it's fine to live a self-indulgent life of unabashed reckless abandon, but 1. u cross a line when u have sex w/ underage girls (or boys)(we're talking 11 + 12 year olds in Crosby's case) + 2. killing people is [ ... ]

385 Ever on the fringe benefits of ivy-leaf change in the backwoods princely otherness of The Other City

Eventually we find ourselves in a library that morphs into a jungle. «Covers were falling apart and leaves prolapsed from them, lolling out of the books like tired tongues, falling on the ground and mixing with leaves from other books, putrefying and forming a soaring pile of oozing, phosphorescent, malodorous compost, through which I had to force my way waist-deep at times.» [ ... ]

384 L'unica cosa «real» is a spooky W.I.P. entangled D.O.A. to heights-driven hypocrisy (or how the hippies ruined fysiks)

... «If a culture cannot afford an area in itself where pure nonsense happens, and where it is not practical, it has no objectives, it was for nor no reason whatsoever ... then this culture is dead.» ... if u can't beat 'em, embrace the chaos. [ ... ]

383 Taking Discomfort in dam-licking ibex + creepy denuded dolls, IRL to URL

... not always easy gliding (the ideas, that is—the language itself is economic + efficient), in fact resistance is a common theme (tho never explicitly stated) that seems to thread thru the stories, as if w/o resistance language would slide right thru u, but she sets meaty hooks, gritty barbs that snag like toothed tapeworms onto her slipstream of childlike wonder to make u bleed internally + productively. [ ... ]

382 Anachronistic unicorns + Borromean morality against the fascism of nature

... We're all victims of our parents' inability to resist the reproductive urge.» In many ways the Balkan states + Italy could be considered regressive «has been» places + we don't mean that in a bad way ... it's just the way of nature. Great minds built these empires, these buildings, this art. But the generations that have inherited this don't necessarily have anything to do w/ it. It gets back to [ ... ]

381 ... + the sown teeth started to grow + assume a new kind of body: on anthropomorphic shape-shifting + fleecing taxidermy

The collective take-away from the culled mash-up of metamorphing anthropomorphic fables—«the moral of the story» as they say—is that here's nothing constructive in static story-telling. There's no evolution in the day-to-day. Making art should be like throwing teeth [ ... ]

380 An itemized récit for wandering the Obscure undead from west 71st to 60th

This independence, which is passed over in the everyday use of language, is the negativity at the heart of language. The word means something because it negates the physical reality of the thing. Only in this way can the idea arise. The absence of the thing is made good by the presence of the idea. What the everyday use of language steps over to make use of the idea, literature remains [ ... ]

379 A Dyadic search for any dad wandering the N tip of a maphattan state of mind

There's a reason why we say things like we're «on the same wavelength» ... it's not just a metaphor, but sometimes it feels that consciousness is really like that ... that a stream of thought is actually something u can physically take for a log ride, a mechanized stream [...] like certain language hits harmonic frequencies, that not only synch conscious thought w/ subconscious thought, but enable [ ... ]

378 Fearless Vampire Killers: Aboriginal spider-bots dreaming a living document forever in track changes

This dream did not have a storyline capable of recounting, but the dream itself was of an actual piece of paper w/ lines of text + in the dream we were trying to read this text which was ½ backwards, like a negative image or typesetters printing plate. We were struggling to read the words backwards, to figure out what the text was about, but as we deciphered it we realized the text was about [ ... ]

377 An exploding ticket to channel a reflexive river of bi-polar chaos on 1 self to sweep Slocum depth charge under wandering rocks + avoid colony collapse

We 'write' SSEY in the same way we write 5cense, in that a flood of parallels + synchronicities overwhelm us that we try to make sense of + herd into their appropriate reappropriations [...] itemized brain-stormage needing drainage [ ... ]

376 If a rat family nests in your hair, brush their teeth before bed: The pscyhogeography of ruin + reconstruction

... documenting the nonsense of the nonsite, a hotel simultaneously undergoing decay + reconstruction whilst being occupied. U could say every bldg is ever-dealing w/ the bootstrapping flux of dueling ruin + rebuilding, but the harsh tropical elements exacerbated the entropic decay, as did the transient nature of the hotel, whose upkeep was subject to the economic demands of tourism. [ ... ]

375 Cryptically teletyping native Sugarhill Mumbo Jumbo til no longer empty

As we told them, we don't mind the idea of having Calamari titles in the Library of Congress ... all they have to do is say 'please' ... but instead 2 different people have been harassing us, saying it's mandatory, instructing us to do it, not asking. How did this ever become a law? Does no 1 else take issue w/ this? Seems insane that our govt is in the bizness of telling us what we can or can't [ ... ]

374 Running X-country commentary thru a mazing interlocked tile vaults, X SSEY, the Phoenician aesthetic of what we take for granted parcours du jour

SSES-wise we've been marching on ... analogous route-finding, connecting the dots street-wise ... dotting i's + x-ing t's so we don't leave anything unturned. Finished episode 7 (of 23) ... analogously Ulysses is still chilling w/ the Phaeacians, which for us means [ ... ]

373 Mainely letting milk + fish sleep while the capracious cult kilgores

This in combination w/ Apocalypto + current news of Israel/Palestine was inducing weird dreams ... went on until early morning. Here we are in the mountains of Vermont for a reprieve from the sights + sounds of the city + busloads of Hasids from Brooklyn [ ... ]

372 The great pond analog of Mt. Analogue, Maine

... A Novel of Symbolically Authentic Non-Euclidean Adventures in Mountain Climbing. Mt. Analogue (the mountain) is an allegorical mountain, a metaphysical object that is revealed only to those that seek it. The expedition to scale it is ignited by an academic article the narrator writes «... a rather hasty study of the symbolic significance of the mountain in ancient mythologies.» [ ... ]

371 Horror of deformity: Woolfish grin sirens stickballing + girdling grids + capes to spin plates of quahog all the Great White way to ride Woods Holey Waves

... an hourglassy ordering of words, yielding structure + meaning to the bramble + what lays beneath. Invisibly inked hangers or placemats to detect sub-surface interactions + to expose, flashing like fireflies ... atoms sparking in a bubble chamber [ ... ]

370 Now that we've given up hope we feel much better: a tinkering pilgrim + man a machine swapping odyssey ...

What is the etymology of etymology anyway? ... Living in the city is the albatross we bear ... When will we have seen enough before we realize the act of seeing corrupts the very thing we're trying to observe? ... Why not just let people swim at their own risk wherever the fuck they want? ... All the while rubbing hands together like the mad scientist ... to fold confining fence into flesh [ ... ]

369 O' brother, put ur H on the maPhattan Project ... peregrinating like gridwork

This is the whole point of The Odyssey, is that it can be overlaid on any other story to come after ... specially stories where it becomes more about the journey than the destination. July 6 ... decided to kick off our maPhattan Project w/ a doubleheader weekend ... so this morning we tackled streets 125 thru 122 (9.3 miles in total) ...The other thing we decided, is that in addition to walking [ ... ]

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