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884> June in July smelling pink papayas thinking no 1 belongs here more than U
... just when we were complaining about how the series doesn't go into the day-to-day collateral damage of the mafia (which was what made the movie so intresting), they're finally showing this sorta stuff, the consequences of organized crime on regular folk working regular jobs on the periphery. Not much else going on, starting to wrap our head around the idea of leaving for Italy in August + [ ... ]

883> Quarantine's Sanctuary (our 1st publication) U-hauling back across the states to AZ
... outer hull of the Λότκα-βολτέρρα.The barnacle hydra floated the seas in larval ontogenesis until they encountered a solid object, such as a Humpback whale or a harbor-bound oil freighter, and attached themselves, and once secured they no longer had use for their brains, their only need was to filter nutrients from the tides. Their brains atrophied and were digested for supplemental nourishment. [ ... ]

882>ctrl+V to W the 4/25 sound of sickaid-ahhs in the White-noised wing
... classic Cassavettes w/ Gena Rowlands... weird thing is Val Avery was in The Amityville Horror + we'd never seen him but were talking about how flat his character was + then he suddenly appears in Minnie and Moskowitz as a totally different character, like we'd gone down a Val Avery rabbit hole... got us to thinking it must be a thing where people watch movies consecutively w/ the same bit or [ ... ]

881> Brood X2—collecting + cooking cicadas 101
Some also say the black adults taste good, but we never tried them... seems if an adult made it to the tree and molted then it deserves to live, especially the pregnant females which some say are a delicacy. I "saved" quite a few adult cicadas that were on sidewalks or seemingly lost nowhere near a tree by putting them high up in trees, and a few (including one that hitched a ride home on my backpack) we [ ... ]

880>Foraging for a feast of Brood X magic sick-aid-ahhs
There's even a fungus that eats cicadas alive, turning them into sex-crazed zombies, 1st digesting their genitals + butt then "a behavior-altering amphetamine in the fungus takes over their brains and encourages them to ignore the fact that half their bodies are missing" + turns males into female impersonators so they can spread the fungus when other males try to hump on what's left of their fungus- [ ... ]

879> Alone in an armchair viewing Alone on the Wall + Crip Camp 2 clear the Q 4 more headroom 2 Quit
... there's nothing they can do about since it's private property. So the abandoned church has become a safe haven 4 the rats... spose that's what churches are 4. Haven't seen any cicadas yet. We saw holes in the ground that maybe they were diging in prep 4 temps 2 reach 64° + 1 night in Malcolm X park we saw dozens if not hundreds of rats, but no cicadas. Once brood X comes there'll be even more [ ... ]

878>Ice storms, covered bridges, red barns + why our 1st poem remains unpublished (NH, NYC + Vermont 1998)
... drove to Logan. Arrive at the airport at 8:30 to catch an 8:30 plane. Flight full of NYC–Boston commuter types, blue-suited yuppies like myself. Is this Derek? Dressed in a suit, "business travel"? It strikes me as odd, I'm 31, I have a normal job, people call me sir, but I still feel like a young kid. I don't feel like what my image of what an adult is from when I was a kid. Like how I looked at my dad. [ ... ]

877> A pigeon + D'J Pancake reflecting on girders + elevator shaft drops to put Residue on the street
... forever + our ears were popping + we had lots of time to ponder weather 4 floors was enough to kill us or just maim us. We hit the ground but we din't feel no pain + then next thing we knew we were laying in a hospital bed. We felt normal, but didn't want to check beneath the blankets to see if we still had legs. There were other victims there + we asked the nurse if every 1 lived + she said no [ ... ]

876>Turning 30, our 1st anniversary + going to NYC for the 1st time (Portsmouth 1997)
By the time we drove home it was midnight. When we got to our door it was bashed in. Splintered pieces hanging off the hinges. I entered cautiously in case someone was still in there. It smelled smokey. Nothing was stolen. But if it was the fire department how come there was no note? No sign of fire anywhere. And nothing missing. I'd left a rent check for $850 on the counter but it wasn't there. [ ... ]

875> 1 none alias in non-nomadland rounding-up ½-scene books + film
... like the Oscars—that they shd throw em bones for the sake of blackness—but this is the 1 year the 4 major awards were all worthy of black actors/films + this doesn't even count Steve McQueen's 5 movies that were called a series when a few of them cd of bin Oscar-winning movies in their own right. Then again, we've always thought it was silly that ppl give a fuck what the "academy" thinks. [ ... ]

874>OBJ-oriented shipping news as salt piles up in2 Opus 2 for $30k 9-to-5 (Portsmouth 9/1997)
They make these point-of-care diagnostic things for the medical industry. Plastic discs the size of CD's that had these intricate designs of capillary size channels and storage tanks. The idea being that you place a sample, such as blood into this one area. Chemical reagents or something in another. Then spin the disk around at certain speeds to have them go through certain channels and separate out and [ ... ]

873> Tribute 2 the Tyrant's tributary: liner notes + a mixtape 4 "Kanawha"
... we was gonna call the track "Styx," but we still like this idea of the river as threshold between the living + dead, land + sky. the 4-river fountain (Fontana dei Quattro Fiumi) is in Piazza Navonna in Rome + the Ganges + Danube are 2 of said rivers. the "spiked the font w/ your blood" line is in refrence 2 the 1st Tyrant Books release, Baby Leg by Brian Evenson, where each cover had Gian's blood on it [ ... ]

872>5-teague tearing the lack of wanderlust from the parking lot attendant's bog
we wd of ignored the signs but there were also signs saying it was a hunting area + we din't feel like being shot. welcome 2 this U.S. national seashore, where u can be a dumb-ass redneck + ride monster trucks all over the sand dunes + shoot animals, but where u can't hike or ride your bike. we rode as far as where we walked the day b4 + sat on the beach + 8 crackers + watched a pod of dolphins [ ... ]

871> Horse-out-of-H20 beach-combing trip 2 the amor4us coast weave called home 4 20+ yrs
... why is it weave bin on the east coast 4 sum 20+ yrs now + can't pronounce nothing + don't know where nothing is? we cd tell u every town along the west coast + know it like the back of our hand tho we haven't lived there since the late '80s (+ the '90s in Arizona). the coastline on the east coast seams so vague + nebulous, all the I-lands + capes + intra-coastal waterwaze. as we transcribe our [ ... ]

870> Flushing pipes, snaking drains + filtering lint from tributaries to launch Residue
... in mixing/embellishment mode. bin doing a lot of spring cleaning/maintenance, changing filters, cleaning pipes, etc. flushed out our tankless hot water heater + snaked the laun-dryer ducts of lint. got a Brita water filter, new vacuum cleaner Hepa filters, etc. halving stream of conchusness dreams lately dat are hard to pud in words cuz they don't really halve plots. weave bin sleeping w/ a river [ ... ]

869> Job/house hunting on the Piscataqua w/ no clutch to live free or die making pneumatic valves (Aug 97)
... only way to get it going again is to turn the car off, put it in gear and then start in gear, "jerk start" it. Once rolling I'm pretty good now at shifting into other gears without the clutch. I plan my routes as to avoid stoplights or stop signs, driving around blocks, but it's hard as I don't know my way around and nothing is on a grid. For now I can prolong this clutch problem by milking it with clutch fluid. [ ... ]

868> Dante's eulogy: good grief, Carlo Gian! Where's my motorino? + other elephants in the room
it's from the p.o.v. of a dying homeless guy's dawg ("Mr. Bones") + we cant help but 2 think of G + his bulldog Rufus (also a bit dis-appointed 2 not hear Wainright in the memorial mix along w/ Stevie, Nick Drake + G'n'R)... at least Gian outlived Rufus, not sure who wd of wanted 2 adopt dat stinky beast. we never met the dawg he had b4 dat (Tiberius, if we member correctly) but we used 2 hang [ ... ]

867> Long Live the Tyrant
Another classic day spent w/ Gian was walking around downtown Rome looking for his motorini that he couldn't remember where he'd parked it the night before, reminding us of how Joe Strummer went on a bender in Madrid + lost his car (as documented in I Need A Dodge), which we undoubtedly talked about as we wandered around searching as we asked G to recount the details of the night [ ... ]

866> Sole-searching for mandala #8 along the C+O toe-path beyond a shadow of a doubt
... Ghosts was on the radar of living humun entitties (or search ingenes... from the stats we see the only traffic we get from search engines is really obscure, misspellings or randum jibberish, like last month these are the only strings that led browsers to 5cense.com (w/ 1 hit each): {barberini coat, malawian young girls fuked, particlescqm, pissing kid, popes walls in rome maps, shoulderjtt + voy inch manuscript american plants} [ ... ]

865> Making The Making of Crawdaddy-O while sleeping w/ chiggers, cockroaches + bouncing paychecks
Puffy red mountain ranges that make me look like a chipmunk. Pus crystallizes to amber globules like sap. Poison ivy all over my face and arms and legs. My balls and penis itch and I don't know if it's poison ivy that seeped into my soaked jeans or remnants of the chafing crotch rot. My whole body itches and is rashy and I don't know what's what—whether it's plant, bug or sun-related. Boo-fuckin hoo [ ... ]

864> Chasing rivers in the reel-whirled round-up of cheats + departures to finish last
... we of course watched it cuz of the title, but it don't have much to do w/ a river, perhaps the guy's neck injury stems from playing dead (for a movie w/in the movie) in a stream/drainage ditch @ the beginning or maybe "river" refers to the flow of chi w/in the fucked-up charactors? Afters such a bleak, disturbing movie we needed something lighter so rewatched Dazed + Confused (for maybe the 3rd [ ... ]

863> When Marsupial was born surveying swamps w/ recovering junkies + drag queens (June '97)
This was a common occurrence. Bill showed me where the handcuffs were, if people got out of hand, they would just handcuff them to the rail up front and radio the police. One time this guy got drunk, lost all his money, got belligerent and then jumped off the boat. They couldn't find him. They called the Coast Guard and they found him still alive. They took him to shore and threw him jail. [ ... ]

862> Yung Women + Her Symbols + LDS laced bird dreams forging the phake art of deception
We got a cuddlebone + broke it in ½ + the parrot started going to town on it, chomping on the chalky yellowish marrow in the middle. The parrot said "that's just what i needed". They ate the cuddlebone + was then able to fly. They flew over to a plate + scratched their beak on it + we tried to ask what they were looking for, "water? Something to file your beak down? We thought that's what cuddle- [ ... ]

861> Jay 11v q11v a stranger to myself crossing the Mississippi west-to-east to make a living in Savannah (May 1997)
Some special coating that makes a bad paint job look new (made of sea urchins amongst other things). She had me bring my car around the back. I couldn't take any of this seriously, but what the hell, I drove all the way to Atlanta and it's not like I cared if she ruined my paint job cuz it was already ruined. She buffed just a part of it (at this point I'm wondering if this is a scam to get people to do this [ ... ]

860> Shaving the back of a Hyperallergic mixtape economy of words
... we used to do w/ cassettes in the 80s (another thing the aforementioned documentary din't mention, the whole culture of DiY 4-track musicians exchanging cassettes, nor did they go into the bootleg culture wich was only possible cuz of cassette recorders... tho obviously any 1 can record anything now so ain't a big deal). Here's our usual "economy of words" chart for the sake of fool disclosure [ ... ]

859> Tao te Lin of a psychedelic trip to Egypt (a psychogeographic history of drug use)
... "Animals are something invented by plants to move seeds around" + then in 2011 in our post about The Voynich Manuscript (a.k.a. MS 408) we were watching a youtube video where McKenna said he learned of MS 408 from Ralph Abraham, who was 1 of our mentors/ math professors at UCSC + come to think of it perhaps we crossed paths w/ McKenna back then as our fhesis at UCSC was on [ ... ]

858> Jab #1 + a Pontypool launch party for The Journal of Petromelum Officials in Boryslav
Had to wait (inside) like 30 minutes in line w/ a bunch of covidiots wearing their masks like chinstraps + standing a foot away. We were dubble-masked w/ cloth over a N95 + tried to stand there breathing as least as possible... ironic that the riskiest thing we've done all year was go to the hospital to get immunized. "How'd u get covid? Going to get our covid vaccination." Walked back along the canal [ ... ]

857> Anatomy lesson navigating the senses the month our brother died + we split to the east coast
... uncles are married to 2 women who are sisters, that kind of thing. Men talk about fishing and trucks, women in the kitchen making potato salad and pumpkin pie. We had to wait for the tide to go down completely before we could go clamming. There was this sand bar normally covered with 5 or 10 feet of water, but the water was rushing out of the sound, leaving it exposed. We waded out [ ... ]

856> I uɐ ɹou pɐǝɥ s'uᴉǝʇSuᴉǝ ɟo ½ ʇɟǝl ǝɥʇ ɟo ʇno/uᴉ suoʇʇnq ɹǝpuǝʇ ʇǝƃ ʇ'uɐɔ llᴉʇs ɯ'I
Just goes to show there's no point in doing nothing xcept being yourself + njoying the ride. Nothing can change the coarse of humanity so mayas well rise above + bee post-humun. No 1 can even trust what's going on in their one heads cuz a lot of it is stories we tell ourselves (fed by the media) to cope w/ this reality, cuz otherwise it's all 2 overwhelming for any 1 brain to comperhend. [ ... ]

855> Can't get Swope's ax out of my head + a supposedly fun book roundup for February
... when it was okay to be ridiculously politically incorrect. Guess we're on a bit of a Black History Month roll here, as the 2nd epsiode of Can't Get You Out of my Head focuses largely on Michael X (Abdul Malik) + Afeni Shakur. We're only 2 episodes in but reconfirms our thinking that u can learn more about humanity (post WWII) watching Adam Curtis then watching/reading anything else. [ ... ]

854> Hale-Bopp, malachite + albino burros filling our socks w/ soil in the mes before Chaulky died (Mar '97)
It was all wrapped up between two strands of barbed wire it was trying to jump through. It's front feet were hanging to the ground and there was a bare spot where it had been hoofing at the ground for what seemed like days. But that split second when I realized it was alive, this deer hanging there in a state of defeat, I'd give anything to know what was going through that deer's mind. Completely [ ... ]

853> A codamundi ate our Adobe dogument in D♭ miner is a story we tell ourselves to reconcile th past
Din't help our case when we said we were just typing in a document when it crashed, cuz obviously what we're doing is not exactly normal usage. We sent him the corrupt file (or rather he sent it to himself since he was still driving our computer) to see if his "technical team" could salvage the file + said he would email it back to us if he did. This was around 10 pm last night. We woke up at 1 a.m. [ ... ]

852> Covid-California dreaming of cabin fever, brain fog + another shitty east coast winter
She told us we'd like this guy, that he used to be in Kiss + our bedder-½ said which 1 + started to get into a conversation trying to figure out which 1 not by their name (Gene Simmons was the only name we knew) or instrawment they playd but by what kind of facepaint they wore, like, "the guy w/ th star over his eye?" This Kiss guy walks in + he's handsome + polite + it's weird to see him w/o his [ ... ]

851> Ranch of the French Repression, meteorites, X-files, The Thing? + other border-X-ings into no-man's land
Unlike our hosts, these were not friendly natives. As I approached the main house a young man reached for his machete, almost like they'd never had visitors there. Sure it doesn't help that I have a dark blue Trooper that looks like DEA or Federales. I told him what I was doing and asked for permission to sample on the property while he stood there fondling the blade of his recently sharpened [ ... ]

850> Trip log + analog moving images of our mother the fish before + after the honeymoon
... our memary of curtain events are informed (or @ least was reinforced) by watching these films. Crazy to think of all the millions of mom ents that slip by unremembered if they weren't captured + how randumb life kin be. Also crazy to think of mother as an individual before we were born, what she was like + how halving us changed her. Consider this clip of her paddling around in a pool [ ... ]

849> Olympic bush-whacking + wallpapering our walls w/ rejection + dead valves after the honeymoon (Jan 1997)
Rejection after rejection in both job-hunting and writing. And the bills are piling up, my printer cartridges go out or I run out of paper and can't afford to be sending out writings. The car's busted, that's still in the shop. We have to cab it to get groceries. Groceries go on credit. We walk miles to the movies and see lower-priced matinees and then sneak into another to get our money's worth. [ ... ]

848> I©oniɔ ɔulling of musiɔ from sɔenes of war (a nighthood ɔuring snake-dzzz from beds of our bedder-½)
.../sounds 2 use as starting points 4 new toons. Unlike the early sampling ©ontroversies that artists like Publick Anemone faced (where 1 sampled from tapes or vinyl) w/ digital sampling u can manipulate sound bites 2 the point where they ɔan never be IDentified + u can alter the pitch + BPM 2 fit whatever you're doing. Is this braking ©opyright laws? U tell us, butt 1st u gotta simple this, my bitpull. [ ... ]

847> Gaudí-tiled sky i-lands rapped in blackened butternut + riot grrrl barbed-wire
But to her involved in that scene, to any 1 immersed in any scene, u can understand why that scene is naturally what's most important. There's a certain communal aspect to music that goes beyond just those making the music to all the listeners + fans involved. Making music now as Sound Furies we don't belong to any scene w/ no fans so can understand why no 1 else is intrested in our music [ ... ]

846> Use or lose Mg dreams of corona mandala tattoos + the finite jest of culling the slush pile
We were waiting for the tattoo artist in ½-broken lounge chairs on the street + trying to figure out where the tattoo would go... we was thinking the upper arm but didn't know which + in the end desided our right sholder (the spot where u get shots (relevant cuz the mandala design sort of looked like a corona virus)). We aksed these strangers we were with where they were moving to + they didn't [ ... ]

845> 2020+ ≠ 404: subconchus sub-missions to let sleeping fish lie
Bin submitting excerpts from Residue to various magazines/journals... it's bin a long time since we've submitted anything, surprizing (or maybe not) how many zines/journals have gone under after 1 or 2 issues, how many of our old bookmarks give us a 404 error. We've been so out of touch w/ the lit world, specially not being on social media. Speaking of submissions, we opened up subs for Sleeping [ ... ]

844> 8½ residuals of a kajillion from a crocodile-infested swamp searching for covid advice
... they were saying we could just go to nofeeadvice.com so we were trying to get away from them acting like we knew what we were doing. We found a quiet piazza + sat down at an empty outdoor table figuring we cd just google the information but then more sketchy types kept coming up to us. This 1 guy attached himself to us w/ this string + tried to act like it was accident. We ran thru this market [ ... ]

843> Residue of riding unicycles w/ baked slutty Norma the talking gorilla
We were the 1st participant that showed up for a bicycle race + started to take a spot in the corner, trying to figure out how we would ride the race inside this small apartment. Evidently u were sposed to lift the front wheel up + ride vertically against the wall + it seemed easiest in the corner. Then this French girl decked out in flashy biker gear w/ a nice bike shows up + we told her she could have this prime [ ... ]

842> Long Day's Journey into Night of residual language acquisition in REM/ROM isolation
We were on a boat last night + started to see all sorts of wildlife: dolphins, white beluga whales, ducks, penguins + then we saw a goose w/ markings that looked Aztec but on closer inspection the markings spelled out: "I've seen this happen in other people's lives + now it's happening in mine". Sum 1 in the group joked that Morissey ripped this bird off... "guess he figured nobody would come up to [ ... ]

841> Red doc> corona score of formation to inform our residual diet
it's about these robots that take care of humuns cuz we've ruined the planit + the fat humuns just lay about in souped out lay-Z boy chairs having machines take care of their every bodily need, so it seemed an apt movie in current times. [...] The only thing is she looks nice the whole film, her hair clean + combed, but meanwhile the state of her apartment is going to pot w/ dead skinned rabbits laying [ ... ]

840> Posthumous Rorschach Residues of zen weeping elephants on the Richter scale
He had 52 of them actually (made during covid self-isolation) + it occurred to us we had ~50 dreams in 2020 so we're pairing them up w/ his images, both in chronological order as a sort of record of what covid, Trump + all this other craziness has done to our collective unconscious in 2020. Some of the dreams don't need much alteration, others we have to flesh out/massage to match the images + [ ... ]

839> SVSS AM shift "to PDX 2 weeks then WTF, then quit"(from flight logs of our father)
.... on his lap + he let us take the wheel to fly around Haystack rock (or maybe this is a story we told ourself) + another time he did the upsie-downsies + it made us throw up... seems even way back when we was a kid we had issues w/ our ears + motion sickness, definitely didn't inherit our father's ears, tho like having your own private island it would be cool to have a plane + fly yourself around. [ ... ]

838> In between the dada$tringed lines + behind the scenes of Mess + the oily film on the Potomac river
1). D seems to be the key our bedder-½ is most comfortable singing in, 2) our harmonica is in the key of D minor (we also tuned our Turkish drum we bought recently to D) + 3) this tuning makes it easy to play D minor pentatonic (D-F-G-A-C-D) + D aeolian (D-E-F-G-A-B-C-D) chords/progressions more naturally... not that we know shit about music theory but when we fuck around plucking [ ... ]

837> Welcome to the rivery jungle, moving pictures + the ever-ch-ch-changing water way of 2021
We talk plenty about books + music on 5cense-cum-The Daily Noose-cum-Life in the Blog of Ghosts, but we decided going forward into 2021 we're gonna try to keep track of the movies we watch cuz it's such a big part of what we do now... in lieu of travelling, eating out + all the regular things we all used to do pre-2020 we can just vicariously live life thru film. So we've created this viewing log that also [ ... ]
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